#60

Somehow, maybe things weren't meant to last forever. Maybe it was just temporary, maybe it was never meant to be at all but accidentally it happened. Anyhow, our relationship didn't go well as expected. I knew I came off as clingy and moody lately & I changed a lot. My changes has led to many fights and it makes you tired of me being cranky, moody, emoish and so on. The memories we made, it will always be kept safely somewhere no one could open it except the person who made it. The promises we made, practically it was bullshit maybe or maybe we make promises that we can't promise. I wouldn't know if you are reading my blog but if , I have something dedicated for you.

Alis Nur Shafeeza binti Azizi, my life changed when I met you for the first time during F1 National Level 2012. We weren't that close initially but somehow over the holiday, we got close, so close and when I was in hostel, I called you every night using the public phone for the first month. Then, I got my phone and brought to school, we did talk every night. I still remembered the moment where you cried because you didn't talk to me for three days. Hahaha, cute relationship I suppose? Well, we started calling each other by all the sweet names when I declared you were my part time bestfriend & part time girlfriend. The date 28/4 was the date we got together as a couple. Things went on smoothly for the first two months, entered the third month, we started to drift slowly and things just went wrong since there. Though we are miles apart sometime, I was still able to experience our first date on the 15/8. My first date to be exact. Hahaha, then you had your trials and both of us were busy but I was still too clingy, expecting for your attention till I annoyed you. The day came where we have to be apart maybe, 8/9. Guess it was the best for both of us to continue with our life though it had been a week since then. So yeah, I did like to say sorry for everything that I have done and may your days become easier with all the challenges coming through. You're a smart girl, funny, always cheerful and smiling but behind that smile, only a few knows what pain lies behind it and I have known a few of your dark side but I still insisted to stay because I love you. You are a brave girl and always up for a challenge. Take care of your health cos you fall sick easily and never regret the things you have done :) Life is a learning experience. If fated again, somewhere, somehow, somewhen, we will cross our path again and fall in love again maybe as husband and wife eh? Hahaha, till then, bye peeps.